I've been there, feel it, experience it and see all, well I have no feeling and do not believe in true love anymore. I'm just like a walking zombie, living just for the sake of my kids only, else i would have long gone from this world.

I feel your pain when you use the word zombie.  Please dont be.

 

I failed to control it, in fact my mind lost to him and make me a living zombie, now.

 

The world is still great and beautiful out there.  

 

I know but I lost everything, I lost my self confidence, a big blow to my self-esteem, my belief system, trust, my sense of security, my life....