Black Pepper Maniac 黑胡椒狂人

I am a black pepper maniac.  

I love to have very fresh grounded black pepper on almost everything I have: congee, soup, salad, spaghetti, my favorite penne rigate... I even had to ground some on the Tuna Sandwiches I made last week, even i had a few bites already.

When I was a little girl, I was told in Chinese tradition that pepper could help us to reduce unwanted gas in our digest system.  I guess im over-practice this :P

I guess I have the smug faces whenever I ground my very-own black pepper grinder at home.  But it is not a matter of prestige.  I am probably another childish kid who loves to play with the grinder, enjoy the action, the sound made, and seeing different pieces fall into my bowl and smell the freshness of the pepper.

Being adopting natural consume of food intake and beware of detoxification, somehow I have battles within me for I have been an extreme person in my entire life.  Workaholic, blackpepperholic, alcoholic... I do try my best to stay calm and live in slow pace at most of the time.  

The book Fight Club, by my favorite author Palahniuk stated we are living in this modern era with a kitchen full of condiments instead of fresh food.  So true!  When I first got the chance to set my very own first home as a newly wed, i filled my kitchen with lots of of 'new toys' and I got stabbed by the family, cos they adopt fresh food strategy in life and all they can find in my kitchen were instant drinks, instant foods, frozen food, and my museum of western condiments which they hadnt seen before... 

I know I should have better control off those condiments but no matter what, I cant get it out of my little condiment tray.  I did take a good look at my tray and concluded that I can lost all of them, but not my very own personal black pepper grinder, with black pepper always filled in, of cause.  

So, one day if you want to bring me a little gift, this is it :) 

A little personal note in a small card would be a big plus.

"Things that we owned, end up owning us" by Palahniuk.

I am trying my best to practice a free state of mind for not trying to own anything in my life, not anything materistically.  I guess we somehow try to define who we are, by having the materials in life, which isnt healthy style of living.

你一定還未遇過黑胡椒狂人吧！

我就是了：）我幾乎是無黑胡椒不歡的。當然我最享受是在家裡親自為我自己的食物磨上一些香噴噴的黑胡椒。粥湯沙拉粉面類我都不會嫌多。

我的飲食之道是減少調味料，可是既是我能把其它的多扔掉，黑胡椒是少不了了。我也知道不能過量，也只是心血來潮寫來跟大家聊聊罷了。

我是極端的擁護者。我也身受極端的弊處。身為美容顧問我還是提倡大家一定要多喝水，多蔬果，多五穀類，多睡眠，少肉，少調味料，少咖啡因／酒精。

The Seven-year Period

This typical terms would remind most of us for the movie by this famous flim image, The 7 Year Itch, by M.Monroe.... that we get bored in our marriage and looking for an affair.  NO, I'm not talking about marriage here today.

In western world, there is a paradox about the 7-year circle, that every seven year there are some significant issues happen in our life.  It is said we would have something special in our 7th, 14th, 21st, 28th, 35th, 42th birthdays and so forth.  I find it interesting and try listing out my life here as echo to one of my blogger friends' blog here

Jane@7-year-old

Couldnt remember much about it except I have taken a good photo in this age that I keep till today.

Jane@14-year-old

I was in first formal year of Secondary school and I have made many good friends in this year, which lasted till today.  We share the very same life perspective, art and music. 

And, I moved for the very first time in my life.  There starts my non-stop tragedy of not able to stay in one place for more than 5 years in my life... from 14 till 33 last year.

Jane@21-year-old

I experience the poorest life I had in my life and seen the darkest of one's life.  I was picked up and tried my best to bounce back as much as I could.  Of cos, I did it.

Jane@28-year-old

I had an unpredicted pregnancy, and my child was born the next year.

Two more years to my 5th circle and i will tell you about it in Xmas of 2010 when I would have just passed my 35th birthday.  The best I could predict it has something to do with my marriage.  Of cos, I do wish life is full of surprises :)

Now, please share me about yours :)

我去了

我要你為明天歌唱　

我帶著淚珠切切盼望 我去了　

我去了　

明天的花兒一樣香 我去了　

我去了　

明天的太陽一樣光  

我要你為明天歌唱　

我帶著淚珠切切盼望 

分別了　

分別了　

明天的美酒你獨嚐 

分別了　

分別了　

明天的歌曲你獨唱  

為了我們明天難相見　

此恨綿綿問蒼天 把枕邊細語　

一句句記在心田 對明天陽光　

一聲聲引吭向前 明天　

明天　

我們在夢中再相見啊啊啊啊  

我要你為明天歌唱　

我含笑留下這篇詞章 

忘了吧　

忘了吧　

明天不再是哀傷 記住了　

記住了　

明天是充滿了希望

明日之歌
蔡琴 / 不了情

What is available. Is it your available or my available?

I. Am. Available. Tonight. If. You. Need. Me.

SMS if you want to see me online.

I would like to try and be the replacement for the bottle. But it is
all your preference. I'm fine either way. Am just telling I'm
available, is all.

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Please be available in my blog/comments

Im heartfully available, but physically, i have to watch a movie with him

Sweet. thanks. But u cant be a replacement of the bottle.  u cant get me there. anyway, how sweet of you. thanks, heartfully.

U cant get me the swings, the forgetful, this sweet, this wonderful... try get drunk, then u wont want anyone/anything to replace this....

love ya.

醉

喝醉了有什麼不好的嗎？

我找不到有什麼不好的原因，因為每當我醉了：身邊的人（網上／身邊的）:

 終於肯聽我說話了

=他們都趁我看來醉了的時候問了我好多好多平日不敢問我的問題；

我也持酒賣單純，答了他們要聽的話＝當然都是我想“答”的話＝

天呀！什麼時候人們才能真心想對呢？

您也太封閉了罷？醉＝一定就是負面的麼？

讓我去罷。

你是知道的，我根本醉不了。

LET ME GO.

Is there any particular reason when you told me to say sober?

Why must I? Why should I? CHILL OUT!!! Are you sure it is ALL GOOD for me when you told me to do so?  Well, why dont you just stay relaxed and come get drunken with me!  It is all great here.  U would worry at least 50% less than usual, and you would feel happy easiER than usual! It is all great experience here. Come join me. :)  Love you.

... at least, Im able to publish a blog entry without regret here: would you be able to do so?

The Second Jane's "My-Trip"

Malaysia Holidays 2009

I've decided to make Mo's 2009 summer break meaningful, by taking him home to Sandakan to spend time with his mother's family and spend time with everyone, for 1.5 months! ... which is also my little break I plan for myself to stay away from the hectic lifestyle here.. :P Apparently I get addicted to stay away from here and Im going to plan more in future and fly off from HK more often...

What career will suit your personality?

What career will suit your personality? This description is a generalisation. If it rings true, you've found your career type. If it doesn't, return to the quiz, decide whether you answered truthfully, and not by what you think you should answer. Redo your answers and read your new results.

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to stimulate your senses and your mind, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:  Novelist Photographer Vet Medical Technician Paralegal Geologist Marine Biologist Graphic Designer Online Content Developer Webmaster Computer Security Producer Computer Programmer Technical Writer Systems Analyst Meteorologist Artist You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private. You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses. You like to be involved deeply in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others at all costs.  You trust what is certain. You only like new ideas if they can be practically applied to the situation. You value what is real. You use your common sense. You like to utilise the skills you have instead of learning new ones. You are very specific and detailed when writing or talking to others. You follow directions well. You like things to be laid out for you to do instead of working them out for yourself. You like decisions to be made. You don't like things to be left in limbo. You like to know what you are getting into before you commit to something.  You like to focus on the here and now. You enjoy completing projects. It is important for you to achieve and succeed. Therefore, you believe in working hard and playing later. You like to set goals and work towards them. Discover your email personality Chat on the Life in the Workplace message board Test your emotional intelligence

Colour

The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are: Thoughtful and sensitive When you are moved to act, you are: Confident and optimistic When you are inspired, you are: Spontaneous and adventurous When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Light hearted and funny Your life's purpose is: To change the world

The Ultimate Color Test

Dear Joy, Welcome to the family! November 15, 2008

Dear Joy and Ric

Today you are joined in marriage,
remember to always…
Be understanding of your partner’s needs.
Hold each other in the highest regard.
Have a sense of humour as you meet life’s challenges.
Honour one another when you are together or apart.
Respect each other’s differences.
Enjoy the good times, and endure the storms.
Make your dreams come true, together…
Most of all, love one another…

Love and regards from everyone at home.

弟弟越洋傳來了個喜訊。我衷心地祝福他們。

我不相信婚姻但我一定贊成婚姻。

這是人生。

已婚的你，來和我一同檢視自己的婚姻吧。

了解他的需要

滿滿的關愛

榮譽對方

尊重分歧點

分享分旦

一起把夢想成真

最重要的還是：彼此相愛。

看到這裡我想

到底，是誰違被婚約了？

取？捨？

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為何赤身裸體出現在公開場合，便是觸犯了「善良風俗」？

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為何許多信徒難以想像上帝是黑人婦女？

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為何以中指指著某人是非常糟糕的一件事？

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為何我們不能直截了當地說：第歐根尼不過是一個發瘋流浪漢，耶穌也好不到哪裡去？

～《你管柏拉圖怎麼想》第28頁 ～ 

珍珍此生總是在追求底線。人生生活工作道德感情無一倖免。

只有看到了底線以後我才能放心的走下去。

今天看到此篇有趣的就寫來讓你瞧一瞧、想一想。

我給祖看了後，便問他：『同意又怎樣不同意又怎樣？你同意麼？』

他喻意人生價值觀的定位要如何把握。自閉如我倆公婆最討厭生活中繁文俗節。

團體生活有團體生活戒線。他常就是這樣晞噓長氣，把身邊的女子都迷的團團轉然後卻又不理解人家女孩兒情懷。他在這個他討厭的文化中長大，仍然討厭。學到的是平衡和接受。我看到雙重性格的他在追求完美當中苦得不能自拔。我從無到有至到完美的成就是因為身上流著「變」的血。變色龍一樣都是在不斷的依伏環境而變。沒有停留不加思索一直向前往﹣何處是家？何處是歇息處？

珍珍卻說，獨醉最痛。良人來和我結伴同行，咱倆不離不棄永相隨吧。

好的壞的執著的在乎的愛的恨的。。。不是「同行」最重要麼？

柏拉圖說過人到卅就需要正視哲學。但丁也說過假設人能活到70歲的話，35歲就是時候能看到人生的陰暗面。你開始了嗎？你對自己的過去滿意嗎？你對將來有信心嗎？

Birthdays

Your Birthdate: June 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things. You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle. Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home. You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak. Your strength: Your intense optimism Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents Your power color: Jade Your power symbol: Flower Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: November 1

You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet. You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily. Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail. You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details. Your strength: Your supreme genius Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity Your power color: Gold Your power symbol: Star Your power month: January

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: November 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count. You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing. Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time. You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything. Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic Your power color: Pine green Your power symbol: Circle Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: November 4

You have an extraordinary character - moral, responsible, and disciplined. Your sincerely and honesty shine through in almost every situation. Driven and focused, you rarely let your emotions get the better of you. You're level headed and rational. People count on your to look at things objectively. Your strength: Your unwavering loyalty and ethics Your weakness: Your rock solid stubbornness Your power color: Navy blue Your power symbol: Shield Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: August 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone. Your strength: Your larger than life imagination Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered Your power color: Lime Your power symbol: Lightening bolt Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: August 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: September 27

You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything. You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life. Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal. You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return. Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge Your power color: Cobalt blue Your power symbol: Dove Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: May 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: July 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy. Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas. Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges. Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom Your power color: Tangerine Your power symbol: Ace Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: February 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: December 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem. You're good at so much - you never know what to do. Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long. You are destined for a life of travel and fun. Your strength: Your likeability Your weakness: You never feel satisfied Your power color: Bright yellow Your power symbol: Asterisk Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

沒有天空

天上的空氣再希薄    卻還是灌溉著成群的雲朵

有雲的一天    不可能

沒有天空

Charlene - I've Never Been To Me

Live version

Man's vocal with beautiful pictures

Dance Remix

Hey lady, you lady
cursing at your life
you are a discontented mother
and a regimented wife
I´ve no doubt
you dream about the things you never do
but I wish someone had talked to me like I want to talk to you

Oh, I have been to Georgia & California & anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places & friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I have been to paradise but I have never been to me...

Please lady please lady
don´t just walk away
Cause I´ve this need to tell you
why I am all alone today
I can see so much of me
still living in your eyes
won´t you share a part
of a weary heart that has lived a million lives

Oh, I have been to Nice & the isle of Greece
when I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlo in Monte Carlo
and showed them what I have got
I have been undressed by kings
and I have seen some things that a woman aint s´pose to see
I have been to paradise but I have never been to me...

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It is a lie
a fantasy we created about people & places
as we like them to be
but you know what truth is?
it is that little baby you are holding
and it is that man you fought with this morning
the same one you´re going to make love to tonight
that is truth that is love

sometimes I have been to crying for unborn children
that might´ve made me complete
but I, I took the sweet life
I never knew I would be bitter from the sweet

I spent my life exploring
the subtle whoreing
that cost to much to be free
hey lady I have been to paradise
but I have never been to me...

I have been to paradise but I have never been to me... 

dear fb, i know Paradise simply means Now.  Let's keep looking for Paradise and live at the fullest, shall we? Thank you for being with me now.

The House Test

What the House Test Says About You

You are happy with who you are, and you don't have an inflated sense of self importance. You do your own thing quietly. You don't take up a lot of space. You aren't against being community oriented, but it's not really your thing. You tend to prefer to focus on your family and not the neighborhood around you. You are a calm, contemplative, and smart person. You take ideas very seriously. You take good care of your physical appearance. You dress well, stay in shape, and do your best to look great. You are moved by romance and love. You are optimistic about people, and you love hearing about happy endings.

The House Test

Im so desperately lonely

 

That’s make the 2 of us

Personality Test

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Birthdays In Love

Your Birthdate: December 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Birthdate: August 27

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over. In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with. You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending! Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Birthdate: February 17

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Birthdate: December 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

毛毛今天上學不哭了！！！

星期四。晴天。

毛毛好乖！

九月開學到今天，第一天上學時不再哭！

去到課室後就轉身“拜拜媽咪”！太感動了！

上個星期放學時已經開始乖了，很高興地放學。但是上學時仍然是哭著鬧著。

過去一個月沒一個晚上睡得好﹣半夜總是過來要我過去陪他睡，然後哭吟著說“明天不要上學。”

讓人看了心疼。每天花了好大的勁才能去到學校，然後分手的一刻哭的死去活來的。。。

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放學後我們到公園遊玩去。

我總愛站的遠遠地看他，盡量讓他習慣離開我遠一點兒。

我的兒啊！他行動的能力已經完全成立，獨力自主了！

在他，小孩兒們，身上我總是看到「弱肉強食」的情況。：）

他總以「龐大」的體型去占霸地頭，體型小的（無論年齡是否小過他）就要退後了。

每每他「欺負」了其他小孩兒後都立刻和我有眼神接觸，我都會向他示意說我看到他壞蛋了，他都會低下頭一會兒似後悔了。然後我就還以包容的微笑讓他開心地去玩。

我喜歡的是，他知道媽媽總是在看顧著他。壞蛋了、跌倒了、開心了總是會找我的眼神，看一看我。。。

是否就這樣讓他有安全感，於是總是會乖？我希望是。

忙了大半年（或忙了很多年？）終於開始看到塵埃落定了。

各人都對新家環境感到舒適、接受、習慣並開始喜愛了。

是大家互相引響的安靜能量？大家都安靜了。。。

還有三星期就是他四歲的生日了。

四年前的我就是這樣挺著、「帶」著他去吃米線、上街去。。。

日子過得好快。我也好享受慢慢放開他的日子。

毛毛﹣祝你健康、快樂！

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今天看了《The Science of Getting Rich》。非常好。喜歡。愛你。謝謝你。

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今天在 BSF 有非常好的分享和領悟。EXodus 5 - 摩西再次置疑神: I told you I am not the one, now I am being blamed and cursed even by my own people....

沉默．行走．流浪．微笑．

我沉默，因為心上漂著淡淡的憂傷

我行走，因為夢在指引著我的方向

我流浪，因為心靈習慣自由的飛翔

我微笑，因為轉身後看見你在身旁。

秋。2008

2008年9月30日   晴

秋分已過了超過一星期了

本來我還在納悶著怎麼天氣還是一樣的悶熱

今早我和我的小王子躺在床上賴床不願醒來

突然間，很浪漫地，徐徐的涼風把我們給吻醒了

起來看電視就知道了原來北風已起，我們正式進入涼秋了。

今朝聽到颱風已登陸了台灣的消息﹣可能跟延遲有關吧。

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今天CS生日 ：CS,  祝你快樂。

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昨天毛毛放學時跟我說他明天會高興地上學去不再哭。還會在窗口拜拜媽咪。

我好驚訝﹣學校教得真好。。。

今朝，7:20分，

如常是毛爸外出的時間；

他也如常地嚎啕大哭，說要爸爸留下；

我整理了一下舒發上的玩具，如常地緊緊摟著他一同坐在舒發上，給他最多最多的安全感；

毛爸也如常難過又無奈地關上門；

毛毛如常地緊緊拖著我的手上學去；

到達時，他如常地和我難分難離不肯放開我的手，

可是在我倆的身體完全被分開了以後，他就帶著眼淚鼻涕大聲告訴我記得放學時給他帶冰凍的果汁....(你說我要哭或笑？)

然後他繼續用最大聲的哭喊叫，哭得全校人都習慣了，叫我放心回去因為他在下一秒就安靜下來了。我偷偷地留下，果然。。。

我倆如常地知道毛毛將會either是世上最好的演員or他是最真情深情的一個人。

咿！這不就真是我倆的生活寫照麼。。。